Saturday, June 13, 2009
Oh My!!
I received an urgent message from an old friend. She asked me to watch this and then call her. I am not sure what to say. This is her husband.....
Thursday, May 21, 2009
I'm Fat
I'm tired of being fat.
I'm hungry.
I'm tired of being hungry.
Oh, yeah, and I suppose instead of typing this, I could be exercising. I'm not. I'm tired and getting ready to go shortly. Like in 10 minutes. It would be a waste of time to start now. So I suppose, if I could fit exercise in on top of all the other stuff I do, I would be smaller, right? Fuck you. I guess it must not mean that much to me. Right. Right.
Oh, I can't wait to lose the weight. And then be flat chested again. Not.
"Large breasts are overrated"
Fuck you and the big tittied horse you rode in on. The only people who say that shit are the one's who have never had a man ask them "where are the tittes". I have had that happen.
Anyhow, I am having a fucked up day.
Thanks.
Goodbye.
Monday, May 11, 2009
The White Board Chronicles, Vol 4
Sooo......what do you think happens when an ADHD child does not have his meds, but does have 20 TimBits before school?
That's right! Chaos!!!
The boy and his friends in class with TimBits
The teacher not pleased with boys hyped on sugar!
The mother in Western Michigan (see dot on map) who completely freaked out when she received the phone call regarding the events of the day!!
I'm high on sugar
Lookit this booger!
I'm high on sugar
Can't stop me now!
I'm high on sugar
Eating just the icing
I'm high on sugar
Whoa...this stuff was pricey...
I'm high on sugar
Sugar rush galore!
I'm high on sugar
Gimme gimme some more!
I'm high on sugar
But trying to sleep
I hate being high on sugar...
It's much, much too sweet
The White Board Chronicles, Vol 3
JBs "bike note"
Please note, JBs bike is actually a Harley. Actual photo above
Look at me go
I'm riding a bicycle
It's so much more fun
Than that small little tricycle
I go up the driveway
And then I turn back
It isn't so hard
I think I've got the knack
The feel of the wind
On my face a quite like
Nothing compares to it
-Riding my bike
Poem courtesy of http://www.scrapbook.com/poems/doc/4664/267.html
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
The White Board Chronicles, Vol 2
JBs rendition of me sitting at the dining room table, using my laptop.My hips are a desk.
From my ears hang
chains of paper clips.
Rubber bands form my hair.
My breasts are wells of mimeograph ink.
My feet bear casters.
Buzz. Click.
From my ears hang
chains of paper clips.
Rubber bands form my hair.
My breasts are wells of mimeograph ink.
My feet bear casters.
Buzz. Click.
(none of the poetry is mine. it all belongs to google)
Friday, May 1, 2009
The White Board Chronicles
JBs rendition of baby girl using the foot bath.
Go to a spa to just get away.
Too bad I’m so poor –
a spa would be grand!
I’d be the happiest girl in all the land.
(none of the poetry is mine. it all belongs to google)
Sunday, April 26, 2009
HooHaa Hoopla and my wasted time
Short and sweet....
Have you ever heard people talk about something so much, that you know you are missing out? Their words serve to tantalize you....make you imagine what it would be like if you shared that expereince?
Well today, as I drove across the mitten, (see mitten below)
I decided to stop. I had to. The folklore running through my mind was like the sirens song.
Here is what I can tell you. Do not EVER waste your time at Birch Run. EVER.
As we approached, I wondered to myself how on earth they could have these unbelievable prices with all of this real estate? Then I found out. They are liars.
What Birch Run has is the best PR team on the planet.
What Birch Run does not have is anything that remotely resembles a discounted price. Anywhere.
(p.s. Let's just move forward from that whole failed Lent thingy. God still loves me!!)
Monday, March 2, 2009
40 Days of Gratitude. Day 4.
Today I am thankful for my BFF, who even upon her exit, was able to provide me with amusement!! Well, not really directly, but still.
Seriously. She has been exasperating, annoying, bitchy, moody and a friggen know it all. Her scales are way off balance!! The beautiful thing is that everything about her challenges me to do more, try more, be more. I have learned more than I would have imagined and I have grown as a person. I have had a constant shoulder to cry on, while the mouth attached to it is telling me exactly how I got my ass in that particular predicament.
I cannot begin to express my gratitude to Puppet, who is so much more like family than she would ever imagine!!
Seriously. She has been exasperating, annoying, bitchy, moody and a friggen know it all. Her scales are way off balance!! The beautiful thing is that everything about her challenges me to do more, try more, be more. I have learned more than I would have imagined and I have grown as a person. I have had a constant shoulder to cry on, while the mouth attached to it is telling me exactly how I got my ass in that particular predicament.
I cannot begin to express my gratitude to Puppet, who is so much more like family than she would ever imagine!!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
40 Days of Gratitude. Day 3
Technically, this is Friday's blog that I did not get around to doing yesterday!!
I am grateful for the schools that my children attend. At times, the sacrifice I make to get them to and from school and manage that schedule overwhelm me. However, when I have concerns or things happen that are 'not so positive', my interactions with the teachers and administrators serve to remind me why I made the choice and why it is so very worth it.
It is more than just going to school. It is the social interactions and the 'non book' stuff that develop character. For the ability to have my children in schools that will help them develop into great adults, I am thankful!!
I am grateful for the schools that my children attend. At times, the sacrifice I make to get them to and from school and manage that schedule overwhelm me. However, when I have concerns or things happen that are 'not so positive', my interactions with the teachers and administrators serve to remind me why I made the choice and why it is so very worth it.
It is more than just going to school. It is the social interactions and the 'non book' stuff that develop character. For the ability to have my children in schools that will help them develop into great adults, I am thankful!!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
40 Days of Gratitude. Day 2.
Today, I am grateful for my grandmother.
She was a strong a spiritual woman. She had a love of family and a strength of character that one can only imagine. Somehow, she managed to make every one of her grandchildren feel like they were the most special.
I remember her garden in the back yard, scaling fish on the back porch and snapping beans on the front porch. These memories make me smile. I really feel that if at the end of my life, it has somehow been fashioned after hers, I will have lived well. She has impacted me in ways I never imagined.
She was a strong a spiritual woman. She had a love of family and a strength of character that one can only imagine. Somehow, she managed to make every one of her grandchildren feel like they were the most special.
I remember her garden in the back yard, scaling fish on the back porch and snapping beans on the front porch. These memories make me smile. I really feel that if at the end of my life, it has somehow been fashioned after hers, I will have lived well. She has impacted me in ways I never imagined.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Lent. 40 Days of Gratitude. Day 1
Today is Ash Wednesday. The beginning of Lent. I came across this idea through a friend of mine, and have decided to give it a try.
Welcome to 40 Days of Gratitude. 40+ days between today (Ash Wednesday) and Easter. (40+ days because Sundays don't count as part of Lent.)
Here's how it works: pick a person in your life (at home, at work, in the family, God counts too) to thank for something [anything] once a day for the 40 Days of Lent. Be unrelenting in gratitude. Think to thank. Set a low bar so you can clear it everyday. You don't have to bring the person thank to tears of joy. Just a simple thanks for the simple things. At least once a day, every day, catch 'em doing something that a thankful person would be thankful for and pretend you're that person!
Of course, you're free to do it some other way if you like (I'm blogging it). But do something. Lent is the time frame that it takes most of us to form a new habit--roughly six weeks. Wouldn't it be great to have the new habit of daily gratitude? After Easter, you'll be a more thankful person.
So today, I thank God. I thank God for grace and mercy. I thank God for being able to sit here today and be able to share the things I will give thanks for during the Lenten Season. I thank God for giving me strength and clarity of purpose at times where all other avenues of reason failed me.
Welcome to 40 Days of Gratitude. 40+ days between today (Ash Wednesday) and Easter. (40+ days because Sundays don't count as part of Lent.)
Here's how it works: pick a person in your life (at home, at work, in the family, God counts too) to thank for something [anything] once a day for the 40 Days of Lent. Be unrelenting in gratitude. Think to thank. Set a low bar so you can clear it everyday. You don't have to bring the person thank to tears of joy. Just a simple thanks for the simple things. At least once a day, every day, catch 'em doing something that a thankful person would be thankful for and pretend you're that person!
Of course, you're free to do it some other way if you like (I'm blogging it). But do something. Lent is the time frame that it takes most of us to form a new habit--roughly six weeks. Wouldn't it be great to have the new habit of daily gratitude? After Easter, you'll be a more thankful person.
So today, I thank God. I thank God for grace and mercy. I thank God for being able to sit here today and be able to share the things I will give thanks for during the Lenten Season. I thank God for giving me strength and clarity of purpose at times where all other avenues of reason failed me.
Monday, February 9, 2009
The Liberry....
So,
Since I grounded my 13 year old and he needed something to keep him busy for the duration, the family made a trip to the library Sunday.
First of all, the library is right next door to our church. Convenient, no? No. We are done with service around 11:15 and the library does not open until 1:00 pm on Sunday. Anyhow, we made it there around 1:30.
My 13 year old, who is certain that he will acquire a scholarship for football to a division one school checked out about 10 books. Nine of them were football related. The tenth? Are you ready? The Diary of Anne Frank. Go figure.
Baby girl got a stack of Disney related princess tales (no surprise here)like 'The Prince and the Pauper', 'Beauty and the Beast' and 'Bambi'..... and my 10 year old, well....he got an interesting selection of military books and football....
My list was small. I checked out 3 books.
Siddhartha. A book I read my senior year in HS and just could not forget. I have been reminded why. It is the tale of a young mans journey through life during the time of Buddha. It is a quick read and in my opinion, highly enjoyable. (It makes me want to read The Pearl again!)
Pride and Prejudice. Why? Because I never actually read it. I have not started it yet. Well, technically I have since I read the introduction, but have no comment at this time. I just need to see what all the hullabaloo is about.
Son of a Witch. The sequel to Wicked. Wicked was engaging, enchanting and a wonderful interpretation of good and evil based on one's perspective. Son of a Witch, for me, was a huge let down. Huge. Ginormous. Gargantuan. Let Down. Once you read it, you can't unread it.
end transmission.
Since I grounded my 13 year old and he needed something to keep him busy for the duration, the family made a trip to the library Sunday.
First of all, the library is right next door to our church. Convenient, no? No. We are done with service around 11:15 and the library does not open until 1:00 pm on Sunday. Anyhow, we made it there around 1:30.
My 13 year old, who is certain that he will acquire a scholarship for football to a division one school checked out about 10 books. Nine of them were football related. The tenth? Are you ready? The Diary of Anne Frank. Go figure.
Baby girl got a stack of Disney related princess tales (no surprise here)like 'The Prince and the Pauper', 'Beauty and the Beast' and 'Bambi'..... and my 10 year old, well....he got an interesting selection of military books and football....
My list was small. I checked out 3 books.
Siddhartha. A book I read my senior year in HS and just could not forget. I have been reminded why. It is the tale of a young mans journey through life during the time of Buddha. It is a quick read and in my opinion, highly enjoyable. (It makes me want to read The Pearl again!)
Pride and Prejudice. Why? Because I never actually read it. I have not started it yet. Well, technically I have since I read the introduction, but have no comment at this time. I just need to see what all the hullabaloo is about.
Son of a Witch. The sequel to Wicked. Wicked was engaging, enchanting and a wonderful interpretation of good and evil based on one's perspective. Son of a Witch, for me, was a huge let down. Huge. Ginormous. Gargantuan. Let Down. Once you read it, you can't unread it.
end transmission.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
40
So,
What the hell is up with men when they turn 40? Seriously. I need to know.
My man just walked in the door after spending the last 10-11 hours with his "club" (bka gang) buddies doing God knows what. Prolly drinking and looking at porn. (Ok, so I really don't know what they do, besides drink-cause he comes home drunk, and am merely speculating in regard to porn). He comes in, microwaves some left overs, eats them while staring at me, drinks about 1/4 of a beer (which is sitting here next to me on the table) and goes to bed. The beer is still cold.
So, Mr. Betterbegladhespretty is in the middle of the probationary period of his "club". The other day, I asked him how much his new friends cost him. It's about $30 per month...or at least that is what he said. That doesn't count the "initiation fee". My friends are free!! Well...basically. Cept for "Chamagne Thursdays" and the supersecret club. But I can't talk about that! If I told you, I would have to kill you.
His "club" (bka gang) is different. Mr. Betterbegladhespretty has decided to purchase a motorcycle and join a biker club. Except, oddly enough, he joined the club first. So....joined the biker club, got the vest, bought some gear, paid some money, waiting to get the patches and oh, yeah....still needs to actually purchase a friggen motorcycle.
Boys R Stoopid.
and for my bff......
end transmission.
10:54 Update: I just looked into the kitchen and see he decided to stop at the grocery store and purchase a turkey. It is sitting on the stove defrosting now.
What.The.Fuck!!!
What the hell is up with men when they turn 40? Seriously. I need to know.
My man just walked in the door after spending the last 10-11 hours with his "club" (bka gang) buddies doing God knows what. Prolly drinking and looking at porn. (Ok, so I really don't know what they do, besides drink-cause he comes home drunk, and am merely speculating in regard to porn). He comes in, microwaves some left overs, eats them while staring at me, drinks about 1/4 of a beer (which is sitting here next to me on the table) and goes to bed. The beer is still cold.
So, Mr. Betterbegladhespretty is in the middle of the probationary period of his "club". The other day, I asked him how much his new friends cost him. It's about $30 per month...or at least that is what he said. That doesn't count the "initiation fee". My friends are free!! Well...basically. Cept for "Chamagne Thursdays" and the supersecret club. But I can't talk about that! If I told you, I would have to kill you.
His "club" (bka gang) is different. Mr. Betterbegladhespretty has decided to purchase a motorcycle and join a biker club. Except, oddly enough, he joined the club first. So....joined the biker club, got the vest, bought some gear, paid some money, waiting to get the patches and oh, yeah....still needs to actually purchase a friggen motorcycle.
Boys R Stoopid.
and for my bff......
end transmission.
10:54 Update: I just looked into the kitchen and see he decided to stop at the grocery store and purchase a turkey. It is sitting on the stove defrosting now.
What.The.Fuck!!!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
The economic stimulus...because my opinion matters.
Here is my oipinion on the proposal, which I copied from cnn.com and editied......
It works from the premise that I support some type of action from my government.
Plus, my bff avoids the news, but I figure she will read my blog....
Oh, and if you were not sure, I am a Democrat.
(CNN) -- On Monday, Congressional Republican leaders put out a list of what they call wasteful provisions in the Senate version of the nearly $900 billion stimulus bill that is being debated:
The Senate is currently the nearly $900 billion economic stimulus bill.
• $2 billion earmark to re-start FutureGen, a near-zero emissions coal power plant in Illinois that the Department of Energy defunded last year because it said the project was inefficient. ( I will need to research more, but off the get-go this sound kinda stupid)
• A $246 million tax break for Hollywood movie producers to buy motion picture film. (Don’t they already have money just coming out of their asses already?)
• $650 million for the digital television converter box coupon program. (Forget a coupon, ditch the program and keep television free!!)
• $88 million for the Coast Guard to design a new polar icebreaker (arctic ship). (What.The.Fuck. Isn’t that shit already melting at an alarming rate? Just wait. The icecaps will be gone soon.)
• $448 million for constructing the Department of Homeland Security headquarters. (Find a building we are already under utilizing and have them move in there. Better yet, get rid of the department.)
• $248 million for furniture at the new Homeland Security headquarters. (see above)
• $600 million to buy hybrid vehicles for federal employees. (no. really. Just drive what the fuck you have for now. Replace as needed (when the fucker won’t start again. Ever.) and be okay with that.)
• $400 million for the Centers for Disease Control to screen and prevent STD's.
• $1.4 billion for rural waste disposal programs.
• $125 million for the Washington sewer system.
• $150 million for Smithsonian museum facilities. (in these economic times, we need to focus on the necessities and this is not necessary.)
• $1 billion for the 2010 Census, which has a projected cost overrun of $3 billion.
• $75 million for "smoking cessation activities."
• $200 million for public computer centers at community colleges.
• $75 million for salaries of employees at the FBI.
• $25 million for tribal alcohol and substance abuse reduction.
• $500 million for flood reduction projects on the Mississippi River. (Though I highly suggest people not live in known flood zones well below sea level. Just sayin')
• $10 million to inspect canals in urban areas.
• $6 billion to turn federal buildings into "green" buildings.
• $500 million for state and local fire stations.
• $650 million for wildland fire management on forest service lands.
• $1.2 billion for "youth activities," including youth summer job programs.
• $88 million for renovating the headquarters of the Public Health Service. ( I need to see what repairs, exactly are required. If it isn’t a safety issue, it will be okay).
• $412 million for CDC buildings and property. ( I need to see what repairs, exactly are required. If it isn’t a safety issue, it will be okay).
• $500 million for building and repairing National Institutes of Health facilities in Bethesda, Maryland.
• $160 million for "paid volunteers" at the Corporation for National and Community Service. (is it just me, or does the word volunteer make one think of no pay…and paying them negate the act of volunteering?)
• $5.5 million for "energy efficiency initiatives" at the Department of Veterans Affairs National Cemetery Administration.
• $850 million for Amtrak.
• $100 million for reducing the hazard of lead-based paint.
• $75 million to construct a "security training" facility for State Department Security officers when they can be trained at existing facilities of other agencies. (***suspicious***)
• $110 million to the Farm Service Agency to upgrade computer systems.
• $200 million in funding for the lease of alternative energy vehicles for use on military installations (they need to drive what they have until the wheels fall off!)
Eliminate based on my suggestions and save the taxpayers approximately 3.5-4 billion dollars!!
And as a "symbolic" jesture the Dems dropped the $75 billion smoking thing (okay) and the $400 million for the prevention of sexually transmitted diseases and HIV-which in my opinion is just plain ignorant.
GOP senators draft stimulus alternative
The House version is two-thirds spending and one-third tax cuts.
For who, exactly, is the question……and I could not find enough details regarding their proposal to comment.
It works from the premise that I support some type of action from my government.
Plus, my bff avoids the news, but I figure she will read my blog....
Oh, and if you were not sure, I am a Democrat.
(CNN) -- On Monday, Congressional Republican leaders put out a list of what they call wasteful provisions in the Senate version of the nearly $900 billion stimulus bill that is being debated:
The Senate is currently the nearly $900 billion economic stimulus bill.
• $2 billion earmark to re-start FutureGen, a near-zero emissions coal power plant in Illinois that the Department of Energy defunded last year because it said the project was inefficient. ( I will need to research more, but off the get-go this sound kinda stupid)
• A $246 million tax break for Hollywood movie producers to buy motion picture film. (Don’t they already have money just coming out of their asses already?)
• $650 million for the digital television converter box coupon program. (Forget a coupon, ditch the program and keep television free!!)
• $88 million for the Coast Guard to design a new polar icebreaker (arctic ship). (What.The.Fuck. Isn’t that shit already melting at an alarming rate? Just wait. The icecaps will be gone soon.)
• $448 million for constructing the Department of Homeland Security headquarters. (Find a building we are already under utilizing and have them move in there. Better yet, get rid of the department.)
• $248 million for furniture at the new Homeland Security headquarters. (see above)
• $600 million to buy hybrid vehicles for federal employees. (no. really. Just drive what the fuck you have for now. Replace as needed (when the fucker won’t start again. Ever.) and be okay with that.)
• $400 million for the Centers for Disease Control to screen and prevent STD's.
• $1.4 billion for rural waste disposal programs.
• $125 million for the Washington sewer system.
• $150 million for Smithsonian museum facilities. (in these economic times, we need to focus on the necessities and this is not necessary.)
• $1 billion for the 2010 Census, which has a projected cost overrun of $3 billion.
• $75 million for "smoking cessation activities."
• $200 million for public computer centers at community colleges.
• $75 million for salaries of employees at the FBI.
• $25 million for tribal alcohol and substance abuse reduction.
• $500 million for flood reduction projects on the Mississippi River. (Though I highly suggest people not live in known flood zones well below sea level. Just sayin')
• $10 million to inspect canals in urban areas.
• $6 billion to turn federal buildings into "green" buildings.
• $500 million for state and local fire stations.
• $650 million for wildland fire management on forest service lands.
• $1.2 billion for "youth activities," including youth summer job programs.
• $88 million for renovating the headquarters of the Public Health Service. ( I need to see what repairs, exactly are required. If it isn’t a safety issue, it will be okay).
• $412 million for CDC buildings and property. ( I need to see what repairs, exactly are required. If it isn’t a safety issue, it will be okay).
• $500 million for building and repairing National Institutes of Health facilities in Bethesda, Maryland.
• $160 million for "paid volunteers" at the Corporation for National and Community Service. (is it just me, or does the word volunteer make one think of no pay…and paying them negate the act of volunteering?)
• $5.5 million for "energy efficiency initiatives" at the Department of Veterans Affairs National Cemetery Administration.
• $850 million for Amtrak.
• $100 million for reducing the hazard of lead-based paint.
• $75 million to construct a "security training" facility for State Department Security officers when they can be trained at existing facilities of other agencies. (***suspicious***)
• $110 million to the Farm Service Agency to upgrade computer systems.
• $200 million in funding for the lease of alternative energy vehicles for use on military installations (they need to drive what they have until the wheels fall off!)
Eliminate based on my suggestions and save the taxpayers approximately 3.5-4 billion dollars!!
And as a "symbolic" jesture the Dems dropped the $75 billion smoking thing (okay) and the $400 million for the prevention of sexually transmitted diseases and HIV-which in my opinion is just plain ignorant.
GOP senators draft stimulus alternative
The House version is two-thirds spending and one-third tax cuts.
For who, exactly, is the question……and I could not find enough details regarding their proposal to comment.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Movin on up
Today was a very exciting day. I am very involved in my local community and committed to being part of the solution. Having run for office and working with the local Democratic office, I enjoy being able to have my voice heard. I am often discouraged though, when I look around and I am the only person who looks like me in a room or at an event.
Currently, I am serving as a precint delegate. That allows me the opportunity to bring the concerns that I and my neighbors have directly to the party and have them addressed. Not long ago, one of the field engineers assigned to our site came to see me before she left for her next assignment. What she said to me really blew me away. Sometimes, having someone else give you thier perspective is truly eye opening. What she told me was that by watching me for her three years at our plant showed her the true power of networking and that she hoped that she could use the skills she gleaned from me. I was truly humbled.
This year, I will be the Chairman of the Board for my local Chamber of Commerce and its foundation. I digress.
This afternoon, I was in our state capital at the Office of the Governor for an interview. My interview was for a gubernatorial appointment. That I have even been considered is an honor. That it went well is unbelievable. Now, I have to wait for the call as to whether I passed muster, and I believe I did. Then, I will have to return to the state capital to be confirmed by our State Senate. While I am nervous, I truly believe that I will be exactly where God wants me to be.
How did I get here?
I am intelligent, educated, exerienced and beautiful. Okay, the beautiful part isn't really criteria, but hey! I think the most poignant moment today was when one of the interviewers paused the interview in order to capture a comment that I had made. Apparently, I was profound.
Are you waiting with bated breath? Of course you are!! What did I say?
"Education levels the playing field."
It does. So for all the folks out there reading this (both of you!!), I want to be clear. The only way to overcome, to get ahead and beat the odds is to be educated. We are in a society that loves to judge based on appearance and stereotype. What makes the difference is when you open your mouth. Smaking lips, rolling necks and slang will not get you where you want to be. Unless it is as a guest on Maury trying to figure out who your "baby daddy" is or swinging from a stripper pole.
If I have offended you, that was not my intent. What I really want to make clear is that when you are educated and have the ability to think critically, your choices change. Does that change the "isms" in the world? No. However, it does give you the option to take what you know and keep stepping. Find the right opportunity for you. It keeps you out of the pigeon hole.
Aspire for more.
Currently, I am serving as a precint delegate. That allows me the opportunity to bring the concerns that I and my neighbors have directly to the party and have them addressed. Not long ago, one of the field engineers assigned to our site came to see me before she left for her next assignment. What she said to me really blew me away. Sometimes, having someone else give you thier perspective is truly eye opening. What she told me was that by watching me for her three years at our plant showed her the true power of networking and that she hoped that she could use the skills she gleaned from me. I was truly humbled.
This year, I will be the Chairman of the Board for my local Chamber of Commerce and its foundation. I digress.
This afternoon, I was in our state capital at the Office of the Governor for an interview. My interview was for a gubernatorial appointment. That I have even been considered is an honor. That it went well is unbelievable. Now, I have to wait for the call as to whether I passed muster, and I believe I did. Then, I will have to return to the state capital to be confirmed by our State Senate. While I am nervous, I truly believe that I will be exactly where God wants me to be.
How did I get here?
I am intelligent, educated, exerienced and beautiful. Okay, the beautiful part isn't really criteria, but hey! I think the most poignant moment today was when one of the interviewers paused the interview in order to capture a comment that I had made. Apparently, I was profound.
Are you waiting with bated breath? Of course you are!! What did I say?
"Education levels the playing field."
It does. So for all the folks out there reading this (both of you!!), I want to be clear. The only way to overcome, to get ahead and beat the odds is to be educated. We are in a society that loves to judge based on appearance and stereotype. What makes the difference is when you open your mouth. Smaking lips, rolling necks and slang will not get you where you want to be. Unless it is as a guest on Maury trying to figure out who your "baby daddy" is or swinging from a stripper pole.
If I have offended you, that was not my intent. What I really want to make clear is that when you are educated and have the ability to think critically, your choices change. Does that change the "isms" in the world? No. However, it does give you the option to take what you know and keep stepping. Find the right opportunity for you. It keeps you out of the pigeon hole.
Aspire for more.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Panerapy
Panera + Therapy = Panerapy!!
Panerapy is a highly successful form of therapy. I will personally attest to that!
So, with all that is going on in my life...the bff and I needed a bit of a mental health break. So, we grabbed our purses and headed to the nearest Panera for some Chai Latte and their super delicious breakfast puff pastry thingies. She had the egg/bacon/cheese, I had the artichoke/cheese and we each divided in half and shared.
First things first, it pains me to see the bff with eyes rimmed in red. I know she has been crying. With all the preparation and emotional fortitude she has, losing her job still hurts. And pisses me off. Not only because she is my friend, but because I know that she is an exceptional employee. Seniority sucks. We sipped our Chai, munched on our pastry, and as bff's do, discussed what exact crazy we really like about one another. It was a well needed break from our workplace. One that I will miss.
The other issue, as I mentioned in the previous post, is the "weight thing". My inability to meet a meal I didn't like aside, he was just crappy for saying that. Or more specifically, understanding that he prefers me a bit more slender does not absolve his crass and inappropriate way of broaching the subject. I don't feel like I have let myself go, but I also don't like the weight I have gained. I am a compulsive eater. I know this. I am also rather tall and can (not that I should) carry it. I am curvalicious, but not a fat ass. At least not yet.
If there is any redemption, we have had much more meaningful communication since this happened. I just have not decided if the climb is worth the view in terms of the relationship.
So...there it is. Friends losing their jobs and a boyfriend who is questionably appropriate. And Panerapy. The worlds best therapy.
Panerapy is a highly successful form of therapy. I will personally attest to that!
So, with all that is going on in my life...the bff and I needed a bit of a mental health break. So, we grabbed our purses and headed to the nearest Panera for some Chai Latte and their super delicious breakfast puff pastry thingies. She had the egg/bacon/cheese, I had the artichoke/cheese and we each divided in half and shared.
First things first, it pains me to see the bff with eyes rimmed in red. I know she has been crying. With all the preparation and emotional fortitude she has, losing her job still hurts. And pisses me off. Not only because she is my friend, but because I know that she is an exceptional employee. Seniority sucks. We sipped our Chai, munched on our pastry, and as bff's do, discussed what exact crazy we really like about one another. It was a well needed break from our workplace. One that I will miss.
The other issue, as I mentioned in the previous post, is the "weight thing". My inability to meet a meal I didn't like aside, he was just crappy for saying that. Or more specifically, understanding that he prefers me a bit more slender does not absolve his crass and inappropriate way of broaching the subject. I don't feel like I have let myself go, but I also don't like the weight I have gained. I am a compulsive eater. I know this. I am also rather tall and can (not that I should) carry it. I am curvalicious, but not a fat ass. At least not yet.
If there is any redemption, we have had much more meaningful communication since this happened. I just have not decided if the climb is worth the view in terms of the relationship.
So...there it is. Friends losing their jobs and a boyfriend who is questionably appropriate. And Panerapy. The worlds best therapy.
Friday, January 2, 2009
January Second......
Today was a busy day. JB and I are attempting to work on our communication issues and build our relationship. The (main) issue as I see it is that he is a serious neat freak (read OCD) and I am not. Not only am I not a neat freak, because I am with someone now who is nowhere near the slob of the ex husband, I am perfectly content with “adequate”.
I guess, to backtrack, I need to determine for me what the definition of a crime is. Is the thought of the crime a crime? If you consider robbing a bank and then look up banks in your local area, have you committed a crime? If you are in a relationship and you are not happy, is considering leaving the relationship, without discussing your feelings a crime? What exactly is “considering”? What act becomes the betrayal of that relationship?
Well, without details, that is what happened. I stumbled upon his thoughts which made me aware that he was seriously considering not being in our relationship. This discovery and my inability to not confront led to the following revelations.
Apparently, I am fat, happy and stupid. In that order. At the beginning of our relationship I was a size 14 and now am two sizes bigger. To put it in his words “you have gained what? Five pounds a month for the last year?”. This is a sensitive subject. I am not exactly thrilled to be back in a size 18, but the truth of the matter is that I have been larger than this. I lost weight in a very unhealthy fashion when I discovered my ex husband cheating and our subsequent divorce.
Add to this, the fact that I allow my children to be kids. I am an enabler. My childhood ended at about the age of 10 and I have been determined to allow my children the ability to have a childhood. Perhaps this does not serve them well, but it heals old wounds for me.
Oh, and I spend too much time on the interwebs. Right. And he hates the cats. They are not leaving.
The final issue is what contributed to the way today went. I got up this morning and made oatmeal with raisins for breakfast. Then we (both of us and 3 kids) spent the next 5 hours cleaning. Now, don’t get me wrong, things are much, much, much more clean. He shampoos the carpets at least once per quarter anyhow, so today was the day. The closet under the stairs was gutted and cleaned. I tackled the hell hole that belongs to my oldest daughter. We sorted, purged and threw things out. We dusted and swept and vacuumed and scrubbed. Is cleanliness really next to godliness?
The question though remains….at what point is a crime committed?
I guess, to backtrack, I need to determine for me what the definition of a crime is. Is the thought of the crime a crime? If you consider robbing a bank and then look up banks in your local area, have you committed a crime? If you are in a relationship and you are not happy, is considering leaving the relationship, without discussing your feelings a crime? What exactly is “considering”? What act becomes the betrayal of that relationship?
Well, without details, that is what happened. I stumbled upon his thoughts which made me aware that he was seriously considering not being in our relationship. This discovery and my inability to not confront led to the following revelations.
Apparently, I am fat, happy and stupid. In that order. At the beginning of our relationship I was a size 14 and now am two sizes bigger. To put it in his words “you have gained what? Five pounds a month for the last year?”. This is a sensitive subject. I am not exactly thrilled to be back in a size 18, but the truth of the matter is that I have been larger than this. I lost weight in a very unhealthy fashion when I discovered my ex husband cheating and our subsequent divorce.
Add to this, the fact that I allow my children to be kids. I am an enabler. My childhood ended at about the age of 10 and I have been determined to allow my children the ability to have a childhood. Perhaps this does not serve them well, but it heals old wounds for me.
Oh, and I spend too much time on the interwebs. Right. And he hates the cats. They are not leaving.
The final issue is what contributed to the way today went. I got up this morning and made oatmeal with raisins for breakfast. Then we (both of us and 3 kids) spent the next 5 hours cleaning. Now, don’t get me wrong, things are much, much, much more clean. He shampoos the carpets at least once per quarter anyhow, so today was the day. The closet under the stairs was gutted and cleaned. I tackled the hell hole that belongs to my oldest daughter. We sorted, purged and threw things out. We dusted and swept and vacuumed and scrubbed. Is cleanliness really next to godliness?
The question though remains….at what point is a crime committed?
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